Can you discern God’s will easily?
Honestly, a few days ago I have no clue of what the Lord is telling me with all the experiences right now from the following:
- God’s fulfilling of my dream of having a youth Catholic Charismatic community here in Valenzuela
- God’s love through a special friendship with someone =)
- God’s saying He is in control by the surprising news that I might have the possibility of working night shifts (oh my!)
these all burns my heart as I dream (or day dream) and plan and think of how I will cope with all of them; it’s as if I am in a roller coaster ride…
I don’t know if I can explain it to you how I feel- there are times when I am so high, and some times I am at my low, but a lot of times I don’t know what to feel. But even with all these ride of emotions, I am confident as God assures me daily that He will take care of me.
Just this morning, I am having a conversation with my co-catechist Florentina Tamayo and she told me that there will be a mission-sending of catechists today. I easily said that I will not be teaching to public high school students this year (as I am currently studying while working full time as well) – but I don’t know why I hesitated and told her I will go. Maybe at the back of my mind, I’ll just go and let the Lord take care of my schedule if He will allow me to teach to His youth…
Jesus also in His lifetime made a decision to follow God’s will on a specific day that is not expected to Him as a Son of God:
Jesus on His baptism surprised everyone by asking John the Baptist to baptize Him but Jesus insisted and said: “Let is be so now; for thus it is fitting for us to fulfill all righteousness.” (Matthew 3:15)
Can I quote from Pope (Emeritus) Benedict XVI on his book- Jesus of Nazareth why Jesus did that:
This reply of Jesus is His way of acknowledging it as an expression of an unrestricted Yes to God’s will, as an obedient acceptance of his yoke…to have a solidarity with men… (all of us who are sinners)
Why did I highlight the word now? It’s the same experience I am experiencing today with a rash decision of going to mission-sending for catechists at our parish. Before, I would ask the Lord for days in prayer if I will serve as catechists or not. But now, just an invitation made me go…
Thank you Lord for the freedom you have given me to offer my life back to You- knowing that I can easily choose the convenient part but still You’ve given me the grace to serve You instead. Strengthen me Lord so I can fully embrace the cross You’ve given me now in following Your will…
“If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.” (Luke 9: 23-24)
After the Holy Mass I’ve asked my youngest brother what did he saw on my face after the mission-sending (when we were made to face the assembly of the faithful). You know what he said, “masaya ka!” (you are happy!) Hearing this, I felt at peace that I did the right thing today. =)